i came back home in time to break fast.parents are the most unpredictable species on earth and so is mine.she's a neat freak;she had machine washed my bed covers and bat curtains,clean up my table again.she's pissed that i bought reddish maroon and also for the vintage thing behind my door.she's complaining.but now everything's okay.for now,i could breath more freely then ever.for now,i shall sleep on my machine-washed fresh bed.

u chitter chatter so much!

my lomo is sent for developing,tmr i'm going to get it.horray!i can't wait to see how it turns out[though i'm sure many would turn out sucksss since it's my first time] dragged MB to bugis junction to search for shoes.eh i love it so much.lols 28!wee!30 off.a hit.then to city hall to take pictures on the track itself like "ohh,i am stepping exactly where ystd the cars are zooming.and heyy look at the scroch marks on the road" i feel like someone childish,running away so hard but end up meeting at last.so childish.why am i running away?why are we running away?there's nothing that can hurt us.right??then to AH where i'm so devastated bcz no more MV!!!gahhh!!!the bench is where we laid our butts.and also bus rides and fountain fall behind us.we're in town suddenly and everything is a blur.i bought a cream cardi.hah...i'm pale with the rain.i NEED the cape to keep me snuggle.can i?can i!?or maybe we shall visit the other costume/joke shop and be electricuted by lighters/robot toy/chewing gum/etc etc etc.my eyes shine as i look through shop windows."look at those marvelous looking invented materials!!" i want a police cap to stop bad ass people and kick their butts.especially eugene's;for commiting his used-to-be purposeful life into a number one Beng.anw,we're back were we've started,and to back where u started.now i'm back where i've started.goodnight.eat like there's no tomorrow.eat like i'm fucking sick of fasting.eat like a pig.

babi eyes class cancelled WOOHOO!!!and hell,i'm watching heroes and not reading kay's f-notes.sorry i've lied.i did it because it's my habit.no.it's not only about the lying.but whatever,i'm trying to straighten out myself.just,guide me.nadiah,u're really amusing with your spelling when u're drunk.lol!

boohoo.your cd doesnt work :( i need InDesign!!!


sorry,but i'm a little bit,if not;more.obsessed

:D

in the morning,i gt a call and all i feel and overwhelming sense of self stupidness for i mistook the timing.i mumbled on the phone and cranked up,instantly got up to chg within 15minutes.ohh i give myself 15minutes.my hair is fluffy and soft today from last night's late night bath.

stayed in the lib to look at some-hoho!-japanese book ;) one preppy laidback looking dude asked for my pen.lols.he was beaming when i held out mine,happily jotting down some stuff from a really thick book.found jiayan's bthday present,then again-Happy Birthday! suv cracked me up telling me about Kermit's accidental spewed a drop of bubbly saliva on nad's head.haiyooh.baet's class.sighs.everyone did acrylic but not me.no comments lols! \

i came back home an hour plus ago,stomach filled with spicy ramen.omfg.how can i eat spicy ramen on an empty stomach.it's burning at the pit.salmon swimming.gastric juices yummy breaking it down.did i tell u that i finally found the black maxi i've been wanting for 28?haha!i just,terribly...well i'll give you my plastic heart,Mystery.

psstt u know why i woke up at 8am on monday and was screaming late???bcz i dreamt of Hellboy 2 doing La Pakour.in that dream i was controlling Hellboy to get to the top of this f-high skyscraper and beat his other opponents from overtaking him.Omg i tell u..in that dream i was super tired in controlling his every move;where to jump,where to leap,where to duck.i felt like i was doing La Pakour myself...i hate dreams that makes u feel like you're exercising.

poof!

*she makes me worry so much.should i call her?or should i gave her space?*

jeanne's gigantic hat

photostudio



hmm...i'm religiously reading my Diana F+'s manual.it's been very tiring.me and anis both agreed we're tired of fasting.it's taking a toll on us.we feel half dead alrdy at the beginning of the day.i'm trying to upload the videos we took this afternoon at Bihn's class.somehow i worried that the lecturer who barge into the Mac Lab saw us fooling around and complain to Bihn.i mean,oh man...we're getting out of hand-somehow.i mean,hey,who will not be crazy infront of a gigantic Mac screen?

sighs...i dont know how to tell you,but yea..haa!a pang/hole in my plastic heart!the flame will melt me.melt me in the candle.remould me.reshape me.shoo away you bunch of stray cats.never confuse me and lead me to the wrong pavement.never lead me low.don't play with madness.

T.T" pms alert pms alert pms alert




though it's not raining tonight i felt like it's a heavy drench in my room.the water had finally shed on my face since it's been so long...so long since it's high tide.such a dumbass thing to be upset about.hmm...nie tmr.this week's not on my side for school.hope next weekkkkkk---nuh 'uh.dont think so too.going to turn off the lappie.blessed be.
psst...i got nothing better to do but watch videos all day long sometimes...and i watched Terminator Season 2 the first 3 episodes alrdy.ohh Summer!~



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songs in reverse always scares the shit out of me.no matter how happy it sounds like originally.well...maybe for the video on top...but not this... o.0"

think i cant sleep now.


"He who believe in One,must believe in the other"

ohhh...criminal minds are reallyy cool today.i feel the thrills.some more with fantasies[eh let me correct it-it's Nightmare] of what we watched today afternoon.
i must be nuts to be up this late when i'm usually dead asleep for sure. since i'm that kind that must sleep in a certain exact timing.hmm...think i'll be stoned tomorrow.felt feverish again and hmm...my wrist hurts.dont know why either.












think you're asleep.well,goodnight


http://www.dumpr.net/



"I am born of a thousand storms, and grey with rushing rains"





















i love harry clarke!wahh~ such a great italian illustrator ^^

bought EAP complete book of tales and poems thanks to meatballs for finding it :D
weeeeeeeeee!!~~ and it's cheaper then the last time i see it.50bucks down to 30bucks.
and u offered to buy the cd for me again and it surprised me so...it's like your sacrifice for me.bt its okay,bcz i just had fun though it's tiring lols.

this was what i've got to know about me today when i logged in.i hate my family so much because they are so narrow and shallow minded,i'm sorry to say... sighs...what's so funny about me?what's so wrong with me?"tie your shoes!change your clothes!wipe your nose!oh u know nothing! you are nothing!what do you wanna do in your lifeee??!" well,maybe this is familiar to some of my friends who i had shown the Twisted Sister's video We're Not Gonna Take It.my bulb had fused and my room is in total darkness except for this light source radiating from my laptop and also the flickering tv beside me;no one is watching it.well is it?actually Mystery is watching it.

Hey!we're the SSY poop girls!:D

selenger bacen nak mampuss T.T"
well,at least it's cheering me up teehee!even my lil bro is laughing madly watching.see?end up doing very very little workin school.dont know how to finish it la sighs :/ dont know how to use flash for nuts.just did facebook and i donated 480gm of rice today.

Beetlejuice ep.1 part 1 Critter Sitters


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:D today was great!except the part when my parents yelled at me for i didnt do my prayers T.T" whichhhhh i shall NOT touch on.well,went out of the house in a hurry to escape the wrath of the dragon's mighty fire breath.took the train,felt good for giving my seat to an uncle.took bus.


hahahahahahahahhaha...ur saying bitch??? whos my bitch anyway..???? i think u have to look in the mirror 1st...then u talk kk...no problem lah ill pay it NINETY SEVEN DOLLARZ k!!...TAK heran AH!...PAPE KASI ACCOUNT NUMBER JE K BYE. MAlAS Ah nk BBL NGAN ORG TAK SEDAR DIRI.

sighs. fuck you and fuck everyone.

anis sms-ed me last night when the skies all twinkly and the moon is bright.i was ready to sleep.remembering Mission Impossible and 007,planet of the ape,tales of my long-ago sec sch life.i want to hear your stories too.probably another time.past are not exactly sweet.but still,it's a memory of your existence.it's a transition,from life to nightmares as my eyelids drooped.


today was alright i the morning,went to school.redundant morning routine.then doing photog like a robot till 4 plus.robotics.bionical.bionical me.i wish i was a thumbelina.i want to remain small and unseen forever.let the flower petals cloth me from the bright sun.Let the breeze lift me up as i'm too light.too light even for the air.



night night.heroes tonight.on channel 5.plan 9.

i set my alarm clock at 8 today and so i woke up and showered.
now i'm watching ozzy on youtube.don't know why i got a naggy feeling to listen to his songs as i remembered my old time fav movie Little Nicky,in which ozzy bites a bats head off-which is actually Little Nicky's bad brother-and put it in a flask to be brought to hell. o0hhh i watched Beetlejuice finally!eekkk!my eyes are only upon Lydia,[Winona Ryder].hmm :/winona edward scissorshands.omg cant recognise her from edward.so huge difference.she looks so young in beetlejuice.winona so pretty.looking at her fringe make me want to cut mine,which had grown long.should i straighten my fringe and cut a v-fringe?and do my hair red?yea...maybe i should.excuse me for putting up my current obsession for Lydia... ...sighs...

i want to spit your fucking face you bastard fuckkkkKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

"is the sky more blue on the other side?"

it felt like someone hit me in the head at 2200hr .all i knew is when i woke up before dawn.

my mum's really really sweet at the fact that she cleared my wadrobe for me -remember there's one point before the past holiday,i said that i want to clear up,but in fact,i didnt XD- anw,she also cleared my messy table and nicely put all my stuff in my closet.i a bit more spacious with all the haywire gone,and am able to breath more.my mum is a neat-freak. in fact,she found a lot of my stuff that i lost!like my black tights,i cannot find it in among all the black apparels.my band,my pen,so on so forth...you know,the little things that you can lost easily and need it badly;there,she found it.oh yah!and she digged my old school band tee shirt with mould on it.tsk tsk...she throw all the filth into the washing machine.

yahh..i feel so feverish i took 3 spoons of panadol[i cant swallow pills for nuts] woke up now.dont feel like going to school...urggghhh...but for Mr Bihn.ahh.i love him!and also for meatballs.

sometimes i feel like my world is squeezed into the size of a ping pong ball.that's how big it is,a speck of dust in the universe.i had that little people in my world.sometimes there's a point when there's not even one.by then,i'd myself disappear from my ping pong ball.is it like we're all in the middle of a dead sea and the only way to survive is to hold onto each other,and if ou had no one to hold on to you just sink sink sink.i'm sick if holding,i want to sink sink sink.



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stopped at the 19th page of my A3 documentation of my A4 book...
will not do anymore.mock model is up and how proud is my skull?
let's see how john's reaction is tomorrow then.
idk.wait till you see my BOS
:S "Le livre De Sacré Grotesque"
that's what i should call it.hmm...
but oh wells...i like what i did this term.
so i wont have any regrets if i got bad marks;cz i just like my this work.
i'm on9 for a while now thinking that anis would be 0n9
so i could send her the Red Stars.but anw,
here i put up the lyrics. enjoy :)

p.s:got to go fry some naan so i could eat and sip peach tea on my bed as i watch CSI & criminal minds ^^
weeeee~!
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Best of cruel intentions
Finding what they fail to mention
No truth, all pretention
Raise your hand to give attention

You'd give it
We'd take it
You'd build it
We'd break it
You silently erase it
You'd feel it
We'd fake it

It's my red star steal it
It's my red star can't let go
It's my red star conceal it
It's my red star oh no

Wasted education
Celebrating immitation
Misplaced admiration
Speaking for a generation

You'd give it
We'd take it
You'd build it
We'd break it
You silently erase it
You'd feel it
We'd fake it

It's my red star steal it
It's my red star can't let go
It's my red star conceal it
It's my red star oh no

woked up puffy eyed,red chest from cat clawed scratch.brushed teeth and did vs dc--9 to 1.1.30 went down to meet surah.till 5.did drawing.omgg.i can die drawing n painting.the wind is blowing fine.my hair is clipped at the back-i look something like a japanese baby.chick on rollerblade.ohh i didnt know they hang around my house.oh wells.i'm so full i could vomit[like i always do]-anorexic tummy.it's Macdee day!!sister peeled off fats of mcspicy while i munch it on gathering all the fats like how i gather sand to build a sandcastle by the beach.like how i dig a hole in the sand like how it's digging a hole in my heart.ah,life should be short and sweet don't you think?why am i always thinking negative thoughts?i question Him and i'm very unhappy with the answer i got.i want a unizebra.i want horns.i want inverted wings.

i want to capture it within the deep trees in my camera tomorrow as it peeps shyly at me.nights.may kingkong ramped through your fucking bedroom today.good day love hate.

hey hey hey...
my day had been tiring.really super tiring.
they said i look like a vampire.hurhurhur
went home,i still want to watch tv,so i watched till 11.30

today,i transfer my research from my small sketch book into the BOS that my friends bought for me for my bthdae ^^
i need to buy printer ink!!dont want to waste money in the printing shop printing my research pictures.end up finding gruesome CD covers from metal to goth band range onwards,since i loveee to look at their art cover.
they are so so imaginative and disgusting.u guys really want to see???

well,after that off to geylang but the weather's an ass.it's damn hot.i hate the 'fashion' this year.i cant find anything i like--i got nothing particular in mind.so i dont care.maybe next time.
break fast at grandparents house and my granma argued with my granpa[vice versa]
all thanks to my tuk's nyanyuk.

just cant resist but to put up this pictures.esp the one below.
i was choking and laughing till i cry everytime i see the last picture.
hope it'll put a smile on anyone who saw it.like how i put a smile on anis's face when she remember about my emily musical statue that hit my head
and how she put a smile on my face when she do the 'in pain' face.
ahh...i almost piss in my pants.
:)

Skeletal Family-Promised Land


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it's the weekends again.i will be stubborn and not to fall aside.i'm tired.beat up.faggot.urgh.nothing much to say.really.it's a normal friday night of listening to songs and exploring new ones.and also...i want to watch Beetlejuice tonight!!

to start on john's docu tmr. :/ SUCKS.but ya..have to do.



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