i hate the condition i am in--and i meant,everything.EVERYTHING
one bad thing about living on the 13th floor with floor to ceiling windows is that the sun really gets in.it's so fucking hot all afternoon now.

i accidentally napped now while reading a book and woke up with my left arm sore and my eyeballs feels kinda funny.

thirdly,my morning was spoilt because i need to clean the house for the shit that my sister and her friend did.all the hair all over her bedroom.i srsly think she and her friend have some serious hair loss problem.they must be balding so bad.

the stupid toy that my mum bought for the little rascal emits an irritating high pitched sound all over the house and really the high pitched sound is making me nutty when im already nuts.
will the people around me just shut up and dont barge in my room like that???
sighs...


okay.i think it's just the hot weather.i better stick my head in a fridge.


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okay okay.no.actually i just wonder when was the last time i sincerely laughed at something funny.




:)) happily watching youtube. amirrr

when assessment is over,this is what i do when you think that you got your hand over time and not the other way round anymore.

assessment was okay.but it was after assessment that i felt that i finally could feel happy again when jeanne talk to me... ...thank you...my head was spinning when i let it all out :(( but i know...i dont feel that way anymore.2008 is the suckiest year ever for me.i hope to fuck it all and get my ass down quickly to 2009.

19th november
hmm..and so i got a definite D for hist essay..i am just very lousy in writing critical essays.what is wrong with me? :'/ sighs...btw,work was awesome.awesome when your friends are around working tgt with you...it feels like it's not a JOB that u're doing.but more like a volunteer thing that u get paid for XD when i was conscious,i was at some place,and 2 giggly girls came down to give me Death Magnetic.they were shy and stuff but i found it really sweet.i was lit up instantly.then i hung around,i dunno for what--it's almost a circle;and what i got was a secret letter.but i'm satisfied so i went home. i want her hair.so bad :/
so that's my day.how's yours?

ok.my hands are really aching from typing a long ass email to Miri.and now i am going to watch Starwars Episode 4- HAHAHA- with ribena and tuna and cheese sandwich,just the way i always eat late night snacks.i am enjoying my after exam relaxation and so are you.too bad for other people who arent.you have to go through the shit that i just gone through.anw,the red stars are back in my heart.sit back and suffer.


this past few days seems to be an endless dreams cascading from nighmares to nightmares.i had made my parents horrified of me,today morning.and i think, they must have officially think im a loon.i dont know if i am grounded.but mostly,i made them disappointed.they are now,ignoring the fact,i think because they do not know how to handle this kind of situation that i had put myself in.i think they forgot what the stupid tv shows advised about 'managing' your child in this situation.well,i feel so suffocated and i dont know...i'm still waiting for a time where i could finally feel free again.

assessment on monday!2 painting,VS model in progress,VS a2 board left.
jia you
hurhurhur

i wanna go kraftwerk :(


we are in a position of injuriousness.especially me.there's only one word to describe what you are now,that is: tyrannical.you know why everyone is passing by you without hearing you;it is because of that egoism that make people shudder upon hearing.i am tired.i really am.who is not?even if im half dying i will still come to finish everything that is rightfully my responsibility.not to throw it all and leaning and leaning and leaning half-dead.i am not my usual self any longer,but i do not think i need to apologise for what i have said.but i want to apologise to people that read this.even if you guessed and pondered and do not agree with me,it's okay.you do not know the twisted position we are in.this is just the most fucked up ever entry that i've ever written.i got no one,no one to outpour too.this is a lonely planet.i want to die and leave a silent imprint of people i love and love me.not to be patriotism---im really down with a fever.


okay.i think i'm really sick because i felt quite...disturbed till i got to see it.

ehmm...not really my fav,but i fall in love with the animation.